Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

最近，我都习惯了写信给自己，交待自己不要忘了当初答应自己所要完成的事。这也提醒了我不要后悔所作的决定，并要好好地走下去。

“甘愿做，欢喜受。”

每当我无助、没有方向，我都会再重复地看着我写给自己的信；

它让我感觉我并不孤单，也不会失去方向。

“我并不知道一个星期后的你或一个月后的你会怎样，但我希望你可以好好地照顾自己；健康最重要，如果你生病了，再多的功课、作业也做不了，请你不要让爸妈为你操心。。。记得要活在当下。你应该庆幸明天的你、下一秒的你还是活着的。珍惜现在，把握当下，并为自己留下美丽的脚印。。。Never say NO before you have a TRY! “YES” or “NO” is depends on you. Trust yourself and be yourself... ”

曾经，我写了这样的一段话给自己。。。

这股动力来之我的佛学班辅导员——依纯、诗美、嘉颖！
感谢你们在佛学办与我们分享佛法。
感谢你们时时刻刻给我们叮咛，并提醒我们把所学到的佛法实践在生活上。
感谢你们对我们的照顾与关怀。
你们的用心，让我感动。。。
感恩你们的付出与用心。
Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu!

谢谢您

妈，你一切安好吗？
妈，我真的很想你。还记得每一次你给我的支持与鼓励的都让我有一股力量肯定我自己、把我自己应要扮演的角色做好。你的问候让我觉得我是个被疼的小孩、是个受保护的小孩。
谢谢你！谢谢你在我身旁与我分担与分享！

15-3-2009

Happy birthday, dad!
Thank Q for giving me so much of support and taking good care of me!
I love my home; I missed my parents and my bro. You all had created a nice and lovely environment for me. Thanks!!
Wishing you good health and be blessed.

14-3-2009

感恩醒觉活动？14-3-2009刚刚落幕了！在那一个多月的筹备时间里，我与同伴们都忙着开会、忙着策划特刊。。。就是为了14-3-2009。我对于整个活动的落幕没有特别的感觉，只是觉得自己很庆幸可以参与此活动，也可以从学姐、同伴们学习许多。当我问到学姐对此活动的看法或意见时，她说到“从此活动中，我看到你们的用心。”；“用心”？？？怎样才是真正的“用心”呢？我总觉得我们应该可以做得更好，也许是因为我没有好好地分配大家的工作量。这就是让我从错误中学习的时候了，感恩大家给我机会再学习。虽然“感恩醒觉活动”已落幕了，但我们的宗旨是要让大家了解到感恩的重要性。希望你、我都不会忘了常常存着感恩的心。

因为感动，所以感恩；

因为感恩，所以承担；

因为承担，所以延续。

为了活在当下

不要活在昨天，
不要执着明天，
只要稍微改变观点，
今天就会很好过。

因为活在某人的价值中，所以会觉得无聊。
因为执着于来自某人的评价，所以会觉得痛苦。

复杂？

有位朋友说到：“你的东西很复杂。”
「复杂」？什么是复杂？
我并不认为我的思想、安排很复杂，可能是因为我已习惯了。
但我觉得这并没有什么不好的啊。。。

文静

我是一位很文静的人。
我不喜欢讲话，我没有很多意见；
我喜欢听聆听，我愿意听别人意见。
但偶尔我会对自己说，自己聆听。。。
文静的人很特别吗？
不并不认为，因为世上每一个人都有他特别之处。
有位学姐与我分享这样的一个道理：
「一个学会或一个团体里不能有着全部口才很好的人才
也不能有着全部文静的人。」

Feeling

There been a long time I didn’t update my blog… but actually I have a lot of things to share. In previous post, I had say about my academic and my activities problems. I had promise myself to settle it quickly and yet I feel very tired, very tired now. I always have a thought that I have lack of time to do the things that I planned. I scare planning of things and I scare that I can’t finish it on time. This feeling make me so uncomfortable, really so uncomfortable. I want to find back ME myself!!!

改变

***今年我能为自己做什么正面的改变呢？***

大多数的人在一年开头会立下决定，但因为没有花功夫致力与心态的改变，所以决心很快地消失。如果你做了内在的改变，外面的事情就好解决了，唯一需要改变的想法——只是一个想法，即使自暴自弃也只是基于一个“恨自己”的想法。

今年你能为自己做什么正面的改变？

今年你想做什么去年没有为自己做的？

今年你想做什么去年念念不忘的事？

你在生命中想改变什么？

你愿意付出努力来达到改变吗？

摘自于一本书与大家共勉，同时也提醒自己。。。

报告

在这个周末，我要参加PE (Pembantu Exco) Camp咯！:)

祝大家：

新年快乐

Happy 牛 yEaR

希望我认识的或我不认识的朋友及家人都

平安、快乐、健康。

转眼间新年也快要过完了——今天已是年初六了。

明天就得回到槟城了，继续我的assignmentsss, testsss...

在这个农历新年里，我很高兴可以与我的家人、我的外婆团聚。。。

很高兴大家都平平安安的。

今年的除夕原本应该一家人吃团圆饭，可是我总觉得今年的团圆饭并没有让我感受到团圆的感觉。这让我感到有点可惜。。。但我会珍惜每一次与家人团聚的机会。

其实华人的节日与习俗有很多都是为了让一家人团聚，例如：年除夕、冬至（一家人团聚吃汤圆）、中秋节（中秋节总是让我想起有着婆婆、公公为我说故事，与爸妈一起看着那圆圆月亮的画面；不知道您是否跟我一样有相同的画面呢？）等等。。。

LiMit

my late post...

Are YOU a gentleman or a superman???

~this is an instruction board placed in front of my hostel~

BusY liF3

WHY? why? Why am I so busy for these few day ar???

I want to REST, i want to settle down....

Besides my studies ( all in mathematical theorems and equations except english and critical thinking), I have to join my activities with my course mates and my society as well.

These few days Me and my group of buddhist Friends have to finish the monthly booklet (Dandelion) for the society... I'm rushing!!! Have to publish on this friday and we still haven't finished yet....
AHHH... Time is moving!!!

As a result, I have not much time to finished ALL my tutorial and the revision... and 2 weeks later I will sit for my test for all the subjects I took in the same week!!!!

mY ativities

These few days night I was having a lot of activities with my course mates and my society (Buddhist society).

MY ACTIVITIES for last week

5/1/09 ~ Portfolio R&D (resource and database) meeting from 1730-1900.
6/1/09 ~ dinner with course mates from 1630-1800.
7/1/09 ~ gathering with course mates ~ steamboat from 1800-2230.
8/1/09 ~ dinner with my facilitator and classmates in the dharma class from 1830-2000.
9/1/09 ~ dharma talk & sharing from 1930-2130. (But when I reach my hostel it’s already 0130 on the next day, it’s a long story happened during that few hours. Ha-ha...)
10/1/09 ~ Dana trip from 0800-1330 and dinner + shopping with my roommate from 1715-2030.
11/1/09 ~ Rest on Sunday! Ha-ha! And update my blog.

That’s all for this week!

Well, I’m feeling tired after all these activities but I having fun.
I’m thinking is it too much activity for me? When I joined the society, the BOD (board of directors) had already mentioned to me that I have to plan a good planner for my studies, activities and entertainment as well. It seem that I have successful manage for the last semester but I still faces the same problem for this semester.

My course mates always say to me “Wah! You’re so busy!”

I know I have joined a lot of activities in the society but I’m not a person that want to be an active member in the society, is just that I like to experience and have fun in the activities that they organized. That is my simple thought actually.

Anyway, I will plan well for my planner after this.

I promise myself!!!

During my form 6

Suddenly I flashed back something during my form six…

When I studied my form six at TARC, one of my thought at that time was that I want to join the activities organized by the TARC Buddhist society. But in the end I have not join any activity from the Buddhist society at TARC because I’m facing some problem in the transportation.
Anyway, I having a lot fun during my form six with LS1A and US1A, we share and care. I have a kind and caring class representative ~ Suriya and my best friend ~ Irena who always give help to me. Of cause there are still a lot friends in the class, they are all very nice and kind and also very funny.
I’m glad to have them as my friends.